Bandcamp!

My music is now on Bandcamp!  The thing that's cool about Bandcamp is that artists can add bonuses for people who download your stuff.  The first thing I've done is offer a personalized thank you video to anyone who downloads a full ep/album/what have you.  I'll soon be adding more bonuses including photos, videos, notes, cotton candy(no not really but that would be awesome) and more so keep your eye on the thing, yes?


http://anniestela.bandcamp.com

Sing.

                                    Then eat.

Where Did You Come From? The Inspiration for "Swallowed Snakes."

Now that I'm making the next record, I've been going back to my old songs a lot.  I listen to them and think about where they came from, and why I needed to get that particular situation off my back.  Sometimes after you've recorded something and played it live for a while, it feels so far away from who you are at the present moment.  When I went back and listened to "Swallowed Snakes," off the Hard City EP, it was a foul experience.  To relive that song and to hear the sad howling I put on tape was like stripping in front of a large group of people.  Terrifying.  But whenever I'm terrified or angered by something, I know I've hit the right vein.  So here you go:

Everyone has a person like the one I wrote this song about.  When you’re growing up, even into your early twenties, you forge these connections and they are hard and fast and deep and then somehow they’re over before you want them to be.  Even if you know they should be.

I was terrified of this person, because he was impulsive and volatile and funny and a little bit crazy.  Those were all the reasons I was drawn to him also(See, don’t we all have one of these?).  I came out to LA when I was 22 to become a recording artist.  But if I’m being honest, there was a part of me that came because he lived here, and because I hoped that after all the years of back and forth between us we might be able to actually make a real go of it.  Of course it exploded.  A week after I moved to town, we got in an argument and never spoke again.  I know.  Awful. 

There were times over the next few years where I desperately wanted to call or write him, but I never did.  My body did what my heart wouldn’t let me do and refused to pick up the phone, physically forced me to let it go.  But when something ends with no resolution, it follows you around.  As my something did for years.  And sometimes I wanted to tear my hair out and punch myself and run naked into the streets screaming at the sheer frustration of not knowing him anymore(seriously, so much drama.  How do you people deal with me?).  But that didn’t seem healthy, so I wrote Swallowed Snakes.

Is there a song you want to know about?  Leave it in the comments and I will share.

04 Swallowed Snakes by anniestela

Happy Girl (Recording)

So.
I've spent the last couple weeks in and out of the studio.  Working on the new record.  After so much time and hard work doing things I don't necessarily love to save up the funds for this, to be in the studio is a dream.  I love every second of it.  I even love the things I hate:  the stomach aches from sitting in one place for too long, the psychotic nerves the first time I record a vocal(when my voice seems screamingly loud in my head phones no matter how much I turn it down), the pain that shoots down from my shoulder to my wrist after playing piano for ten hours straight.  It is all so good.  Whenever I worry about whether I should keep trying at this career, whether or not it's time for me to quit making records and just sing to myself in my room, I should go into a studio.  To remind myself that it's one of the few places in the world where I actually feel like I belong.

There is still so much more to do, and even after it's done, there is the promoting of the record, the touring and the photos and the facebook-updating.  All the stuff that gets me to you.  So even though I can't play you anything just yet, know that it's coming.  And picture me where I am in the above picture because that's where I'll be most of the time.  Yes?  Ok.